And the waves continue to crash
and the waves continue to crash…
When we lean in, we have the opportunity to practice the ultimate balancing act. Do you ever notice how when you add pressure to a situation, it seems to just sink in deeper and deeper? Making the heavy heavier and the light nothing but a glimpse beyond your eyes. I’ve experienced this lately in trying to fight the urge of ignorance being bliss and existing in a truer body than ever. Being clearer than ever. I feel like so many of us are numb to our surroundings and true feelings because it is easier that way. It is easier to pretend things don’t affect you or rather, we don’t even allow ourselves to get to that point. We revel in the bliss of not letting it come forth to our consciousness. Leaning in is brave work.
The point is not in fact what is coming down around us: the waves in the ocean continue to crash. It is how we tend to ourselves during and after. Do we tread with ambition, do we let the sea take us? Leaning in does not mean to give up. It means to embrace the power of the tides, rock with them, and see how we land.
Are we simply falling, or falling into place?
In my therapy practice, I want to make clear that seeing personal growth or trusting in yourself is all about adaptation, not what battles you are handed.
When the universe throws multiple things at us, we may feel defeated. It’s like, ‘really? One more thing?’ However, I think the purpose of this is not to throw us off our tracks but to re-organize where our priorities lie and to truly explore all our choices to see where we feel like we need to show up first. Reassessing these priorities can help us get back on our feet and move with clear intention of what we were born to accomplish. And sometimes, when we are pushed to extreme limits and bring ourselves back into our bodies with coping techniques (hence the adaptation) this is where the remembrance occurs. Remembrance of the womb of our mothers in a warm shower, the embrace of a loved one while resting under the perfect pillow, the tender hearts in a runny egg yolk. Here, we are reminded.
The moon in Scorpio right now, to me, means that we should be taking ourselves as serious business and not settle for less. But seriousness can be sensual, passionate, and smooth. It doesn’t have to look hard-edged (but totally can), we are the creators. Playlist for the vibe aquí.
I am not a perfect angel of a person who has mastered this way of living. Sometimes it takes me days in a rut of anxiety or depressive episode before I take care of myself. We cannot confuse the rhythmic nature of our bodies with Western spiritual enlightenment. And what I mean by that is yes, in an ideal life, we will always triumph with confidence, we will lean into the waters and rock to see how, identify with how we feel, and make decisions accordingly. But we are not perfect beings, and part of being in tune with yourself and the world around you is forgetting and remembering again. Forgetting your natural power, coming across a tricky path, and then remembering when you start to fumble a bit. This is completely normal and a way that I believe the universe humbles us, which can help you find your compass, a place to come back to. It is so easy to fall into the traps of empty promises in our modern age society. That someone has all the hacks for an all-enlightened life… if you pay this $333 to find out 🙃
Alas, coping skills can be fun anddddd practical. These are the tools to use your compass, and help you not be ship wrecked from the tease and tension around you. This is what keeps us clear and capable and alll the sensual serious business! A fun exercise I’ve been doing to connect with Spirit (for you could be a higher power, God, Gaia, Goddess, Universe…) Is when feeling that oncoming panic, the freeze, I close my eyes wherever I am, go deep into my belly where we should all be trying to breathe from, and I envision myself lighting a candle. The candle is my internal altar where I can communicate my needs to something greater than, and leave them there because I can access my candle at any time. This is my version of having a containers. To place the overwhelm somewhere with greater resting space, but not too far away where you bury it. And remember, you can relight your candle any time.
Now seems heavy, I am here for you. Reach out when you need. Thank you.
Abundant blessings ∞
-madison renee katherine