All in one

With 2024 rapidly coming to an end, now marks the time to come up with a personal mantra for 2025. 2024’s mantra for me was Brave for Love, and I felt like it was spot on with how the year came about. 2024 was challenging but equally beautiful and heart-opening. My 2025 mantra is, ‘I do not have to earn anything for unconditional love.’

As I was listening to a Ram Daas and Alan Watts podcast this morning, the theme of togetherness was potent. I firmly believe and understand that everything is connected and collective consciousness is universal law. I have to remind myself that taking responsibility for all you generate as the creator of your life, even if you believe in the Divine Plan, comes with surrender to responsibility in all forms, with all the shit on your shoulders. It can be easy to blame the other for your burdens; it’s on your back for a reason. Taking responsibility involves reframing. Reframing thoughts is the most powerful psychology, in my opinion.

Glorifying amazing things you have manifested while denying self-cause for upset diminishes the magic.

Since forever, I have felt I need to bleed myself dry to be worthy of the “good” things. Do you relate? Beyond being a good person, I know that I am inherently, I’ve often felt the need to overcompensate on giving to be the grateful receiver. I thought because I chose the path of being a therapist, that I could not lean on others for what I needed. I must be the sole source, and their attitudes toward me are my reward. Most of the time, it's never enough because of how much of myself I devote, fully lacking the self. This mindset messes with me because how am I supposed to be authentic with others while acting like a martyr? This calls for a reframe.

Reframing doesn’t just mean changing the sentence, although that is a step. Reframing thoughts is recognizing all the parts within you trying to be heard. Your inner child, which I’m sure you have heard about now, but your ragey teenager is in there too. Same with a strictly logical version of you, a strictly whimsical version that would quit their job at the drop of a hat to travel the world. You are all of these parts in one soul in a human body. Your earthly interactions shape these molds that make up who you are, but identifying with them can oftentimes be a struggle. The part that comes to the surface is based on whatever was triggered within you by a person, emotion, or experience. The triggered self skips past the slimey stuff and goes straight to the source. This is who feels attacked. Whereas in daily autopilot life, you can dig through the murky waters and decide for yourself.

Now, needing to bleed myself dry to be worthy of the good things, overcompensating on giving to be the grateful receiver, and being the sole source for others without receiving from myself is ‘I do not have to earn anything for unconditional love.’ Whether from myself, family, friends, or others. It is acting upon what I want instead of being afraid of what that might change. Not staying comfortable sedated in the muck of a system I did not design. Embracing autonomy!!! Having the parts work together and love all of them, because they deserve it. In 2025 I wanna strut my stuff.

With a new year comes the idea of new opportunity when really you always have this chance to evolve. To be and bleed with an open heart requires you to sit with a broken one. To let your intuition fully guide you, there has to be a point of self-doubt. To revel in goddess energy, you have to understand what it feels like to feel undesirable. Does that mean you are any of these things? Broken, unloved, untrustworthy, and undesirable? No. That’s the triggered part trying to protect you.

Coming back from that, after welcoming it, because the poison is often part of the cure, can feel daunting. It is an experience we create for ourselves and it is up to us to be in the full circle moment of it all.

This sounds like a silly thing to note, but I spent a lot of 2024 with my glasses off. I have had glasses since I was nine, and I wore them tried and truly the whole time. This year, I found myself removing them more, a symbol of trusting myself, leaning into softness. I like the way I see things without them: hazy, melting, beautiful, and I sometimes think that I was meant to see this way because it fits my inner worldview a lot more than sharp and precise (as much as my Capricorn moon wants it to be that way).

A new year can be the mark of something exciting, fresh, new. Maybe you just want to forget about the year you had. But let 2025 invite you to be more open, which I think is the reason for it all. We are entering a magical year, the year of the snake, how fitting! I believe the collective energy is not just learning but remembering and knowing ourselves better, firming our roots down, and grounding ourselves so well because holy shit is our world about to get rocked. I believe all we think we know is going to plummet on its head, but not in a scary way. In a ‘poison is often part of the cure’ way. In a ‘we’ve been building up to this for decades’ way.

So breathe deeply, call brave, deserving, rooted energy to yourself, send that energy back out, and let it tenfold. Embrace the fear, the poison, the darkness because without it you couldn’t see the bravery, deserving, rootedness that you have. Love ya long time. And if you’re in St. Pete join me this Sunday for a meditation ! Happy New Year to you.

Abundant blessings ∞

-madison renee katherine